Message No. 1509

Thursday, May 7, 2020 at 11:11:53 PM EDT

While waiting for a curbside delivery of starter plants at a small farm, we started seeing cars with signs and balloons driving down the small, dirt road. A parade of teachers, staff and coaches, wishing their elementary students well! I cried.

, ,

Message No. 1482

Thursday, May 7, 2020 at 11:11:49 PM EDT

I’m typing from fairfield county in Connecticut. We are close to Manhattan and my husband actually works there. Luckily, none of us got infection of this Covid. More luckily, I have all my loved ones with me during this “staying at home” period. My parents, My husband and my kids. Cannot complaint. Especially today, my 8-month daughter called “mama” “baba” clearly which made me almost tear up.

We are lucky, my husband and i both can work from home. We have a small house that allows each one at home to have space and be able to work. When i see people go to the street and refuse this “stay at home” order, i actually start to understand them. It’s not easy for many people and social distancing itself is luxury. But i still think if it’s not threatening your life, better to consider more for vulnerable people and health care workers. Many many people are not ready to die, like you and your organization.

Finally, it’s been a very struggle period for me since the beginning of 2020, even without Covid. I’ve planned to change a role in my current company for a while and I’m so close to several positions. But now, all of them are frozen, which is a reasonable business decision. However, I’ve got an offer from external, not good for money but the role and contents are attractive. I don’t like what I’m doing right now and i don’t want to waste few months to see if the internal opportunity could open again. So, you see, my heart tells me to take this external opportunity. If So, the family has to relocate to a different side of Manhattan. We might need to live in an apartment for so


Message No. 1480

Thursday, May 7, 2020 at 11:11:39 PM EDT

I live in Washington, DC. I will be 29 tomorrow, and it feels hollow to be celebrating another year of life while so many are sick and dying.

I grew up an only child in a very dysfunctional home, and this birthday is reinforcing feelings of isolation. My friends are my family and shaped me in to the person I am today. Without community, I would have never been able to pick up the pieces of a broken childhood and (work toward) creating a healthy adult life. Being away from chosen community during this time is hard. It’s hard to watch friends have parents fall ill and know we won’t all be able to mourn together should the worst happen. It’s hard, when my anxiety disorder and mental illnesses re-emerge, to not have the same life boat of community I have always had.

I’ve tried to channel my feelings of isolation into volunteering and making sure the mostly elderly and black folks in my neighborhood have the tools they need to stay healthy.

On my 29th year I’m grateful I’m alive. I’m grateful my family-both genetic and chosen- has not been decimated by this virus. And I’m attempting to commit to another year of breaking down walls of isolation created by this virus and long-standing social and economic systems thru active solidarity with my neighbors and with those who share my vision of a brighter, healthier and more just future.
Here’s to a future I know will be better.


Message No. 1388

Thursday, May 7, 2020 at 11:11:22 PM EDT

I’m Taylor–a international high schooler from China. My school is in MA but I’m currently in my local friend’s house in Atlanta. Originally, I was about to enjoy my spring break. I planned to relax for a week in my friend’s house and then go Arizona for a school trip. But only a few days later after the spring break started, the travel agency cancelled the program and I had to stay at their house till the school starts. However, after another week, school was cancelled due to the COVID-19 but the school told us we will be able to go back once everything gets better.


Call No. 1527

Thursday, May 7, 2020 at 11:05:16 PM EDT

Hi. I’m calling from Rochester, New York. That’s far, far upstate in Western New York.

Let’s see. I’m in my study. I’m actually just getting ready to teach my very last online class, and I’ve actually asked the class to think about what is the sound of a pandemic, or what is the sound of this pandemic, or what does the sound of your pandemic? And one of the assignments I gave them was to reflect on this question and then contribute to some archives about the current pandemic. So this is my, one of my contributions.

It’s beautiful outside. Spring is popping here. It’s early May. Everything is green and lush. It’s gray and rainy and actually getting a little cold. We even had snow last week, but the spring is really coming and it’s so necessary and so hopeful.

My study itself is actually in total disarray because we’ve had an invasion of carpenter ants, I believe. So, I’ve been turning over everything. There’s a trunk up on its side. There’s a guest bed in here, that’s, all the blankets are taken off, because I’ve been trying to kill lots of carpenter ants, which has been deeply ironic, cause it feels like some kind of message about, how you can’t keep the chaos out, no matter how hard you try. And you can’t keep nature out either.

I’m looking forward to hearing what my students have to say about the sound of the pandemic. They are spread across the United States and the world. Some are still here in Rochester, some are in China. And I just know that the experience has played out really differently for each of them.

I’ve been really grateful to be here with my husband and my daughter, to be gardening, to have access to outdoor space, to not be stuck in a tiny, small space and maybe not even to be in a place where the lockdown is really harsh. So yesterday we planted a Witch Hazel tree, a cherry tree and asparagus, and I don’t know if there’s anything that’s more helpful or more future oriented than planting new plants. I’m really excited to see those live and thrive and evolve in the years to come. Thanks.


Call No. 1497

Thursday, May 7, 2020 at 11:03:22 PM EDT

Hi, I guess, I’m from New York, which is super fun, right? If you’ve been paying attention to the news, it’s fantastic living here right now. Pretty much every day, it felt terrible. I’m from here originally and I’ve lived here my whole life. And I’ve lived through all the pretty intense situations that the city has had to go through. 9/11, financial crisis. It’s a lot, living here, but it’s great at the same time. When it’s great, it’s really great. And when it’s not great, it’s pretty, pretty terrible, right? It’s like a weird, abusive relationship.

I live by myself right now. My roommate went to go stay with her boyfriend in another state, and I don’t live with my boyfriend, so it’s just me here. And I’ll talk out loud to myself as if someone else was here. I’m responsible for literally everything, you know, cooking, cleaning, waking up, functioning like a person.

I fall asleep at probably four in the morning now. I used to wake up at 6:00 am for work. Now I’m going to sleep when I’m normally getting ready to start my day, and that is my new normal. I have this weird sleep cycle and I wake up at nine. I’ll lay there for maybe two hours.

And every day I will cry for maybe 10 minutes. I will set a timer for two minutes and cry. So I don’t spend the entire day crying. I’ve been lucky enough to not lose anybody in any of this, to somehow be spared from the experience of this virus so directly in my life, but I do have a friend who is a nurse, and I work for a medical institution. So I can’t really escape it. It’s just there all the time. So sometimes I just cry, because I think about people who are really going through a lot and are really suffering and how maybe the new normal isn’t going to be so normal.

And I’m worried that this is never going to end. Even though factually that doesn’t happen that way, it just feels like that. And I’m hoping it ends really soon, so I can stop feeling the sense of dread every single day. It’s kind of hard.

But sometimes it’s not. Sometimes I will play music and dance around, and I’m okay for maybe half of the day and I’ll cry for the rest of it. So I guess like everything else, nothing really makes sense. And there’s no real normal in any of this. And finding a normal in this has been complicated and anxiety inducing, and sometimes I just wish this was a really bad dream and I’ll wake up and none of it happened. Right? I’m sure I’m not the only person that feels like that.

Anyway, it is 2:30 in the morning and, yeah, I’m going to go be awake for another two hours and wait for the birds to tell me to go to sleep.


Call No. 1460

Thursday, May 7, 2020 at 11:02:57 PM EDT

Hi. It’s around almost three o’clock where I’m at. I’m in Pennsylvania. I left New York City about a month and a half, maybe more, a little bit longer than that, and came back to PA. So I’m with my family again, and I’m in my childhood bedroom, which is an adult bedroom now. But this whole thing is really weird and I feel like I don’t take the time to step back and think about how I’m feeling.

My dad is a doctor. So I guess I’m scared for him every time he goes to work. I mean, he’s older now. And then my middle brother, he has had two kidney transplants and he’s only 21, so severely immunocompromised. So not only do I fear every day for my dad, but I also fear for when he comes home to my brother. And I think that’s something that I keep very subconsciously hidden. I’m a big believer in, I feel like I need to be the strong one, I need to be the one that keeps everything together. But, these are things that I do worry about every day. My dad takes off his clothes before he comes in the house and it’s a whole process. And I know all the other health care workers are going through the same thing, and I’m really appreciative for all of them.

But even just speaking to my own personal experience, I kind of was just getting into a place in my life where everything was working out for once. A lot of blood, sweat, tears and time was finally like bringing me to a place that I was feeling really secure. Financially, socially, even just romantically just getting out there more. And so I feel like this is something that I’ve always wanted to be in that place. And I put a lot of work into that. And I really was looking forward to, you know, now getting to travel more because I was in a more comfortable place in my life.

And so at that first when I came home with all this stuff going on, I felt like I was upset about that and I still am, but I was missing my life and I still do, and I miss my friends in New York, but it’s kind of like, that was my life as I knew it. Because life’s not going to be the same anymore.

And I really enjoy all the time that I’ve gotten to spend with my family now. I don’t think I ever would have gotten the chance to spend this much quality time with them ever again, just because there’s not a period that I would be at home for this long. So I’m really cherishing these moments, but I feel like at this point, for me personally, it’s not about so much the sadness of missing what life was, but it’s the sadness and, you know, the unknown of what life will be or what kind of life there will be to come back to. And I think that’s the scariest part for me personally, just because the unknown is so scary.

And now with the economy being really bad and everything else, I mean, I don’t even know if I’m going to stay in New York. And I know a lot of people will be moving out. And just this huge unknown factor. And I feel like I’m more sad every day about the future, almost, just because it’s so… For me, it’s so sad to see everything that I was trying to build. And now it’s like, are my friends going to be okay? Or, you know, my job. Thankfully, I’m still employed. I know that above all I’m the most grateful, the most thankful, that every day I wake up and I’m alive and I’m healthy and that my family’s alive and healthy, but I feel like as the day goes on, it kind of feels like I’m living the same day over and over and over again. And it’s just like, I get so sad about the future. Because it’s so, it’s such a big question mark.

And I know that as a society, you know, humanity will make it through this and everybody on the other side of it will be stronger. And you know, we’re going to make it through this. Like, I feel like just lately I’ve been having a hard time with, seeing that.

I was actually kind of nervous to call in. Even though I talk to people every day at work, talking to strangers is not something that would be in my comfort zone, but I’m really glad that I called in because I’ve been having a hard time sleeping and kind of just getting everything off my chest really helps. So thank you and hopefully this contributed in some way.


Call No. 1446

Wednesday, April 22, 2020 at 7:28:10 PM EDT

Hi. I’m in beautiful nature in upstate New York. Lucky to have a house here, surrounded by trees. The sun is shining and the trees have their red buds out. It all looks golden.

Yesterday I volunteered and I packaged and delivered food to people who aren’t as lucky as I am. And, yeah, every, package that I arranged, went to somebody who was waiting for it and who was possibly hungry. Somebody who was already struggling, possibly even before Covid came, and waiting for this meal to arrive to fill a hungry belly.

And, in my next part of the shift, I actually delivered some of the meals to the people who were waiting for them. And, it broke my heart to see how many people were, like, living in really poor, broken down conditions and accepting this important thing. And that just reminded me that people are in very different situations in this America that we live in. And we, the ones who are luckier or the ones who’ve ended up in a better spot, need to make sure that nobody gets left behind.

And this is a time for us to help one another and be there for one another. And come together. And, also a time to reflect on how we are living our lives. And maybe this is an amazing opportunity for us to return to life better. Yeah.


Call No. 1438

Wednesday, April 22, 2020 at 7:22:38 PM EDT

Being in isolation together with my family, a family of four, has been definitely an experience with ups and downs and high emotions. I want to talk only about the positive things. The positive things are, that this time capsule gave us a good outlook and opportunity to reflect what we do, what we have done so far, and how we usually live, and made us come to the conclusion that, when this all is over, we definitely want to change a few things.

I think that our lifestyle has to be more environmentally friendly. More healthy to the Earth and for the Earth. And it’s important that we act because I think that this crisis is the beginning of something that we will experience more and more, because we all know that the change of climate is coming rapidly and will affect us all.

It is a opportunity for us to really look at things that have to be changed. I hope that politically we will learn from this and I hope that the election will take place and the democracy will be strong and I hope that the leadership will also change in the USA. That’s very important because we can see with this crisis that the leadership is just not doing its job.

Last but not least, how is our life going to continue? We don’t know how will it continue. But, we are basically, our families thinking of leaving the big city and spending time in nature and living in the nature and doing something we have been talking about for a very long time.

So this was my version. Obviously I could talk for hours and I hope I was able to contribute something worth it to your podcast. Bye.

, , , ,

Call No. 1422

Wednesday, April 22, 2020 at 11:18:36 AM EDT

Hello! I’m in Santa Clara, and this has been a long haul, but I’m actually sitting in my makeshift office.

I work from home right now. I’m a tax preparer, and fortunately I am able to continue with my work with a few adjustments, but I’m grateful for that. I want to keep helping people through their taxes. It’s been a challenge. I pray for everyone that is not as fortunate as I am and that can make it through this without a lot of trouble. A lot of pain, and heartbreak.

It’s a dreary day but I have my dog laying next to me, and I’m getting ready to log on and do some work for the day, and then enjoy the evening with my husband and family. I think we are strong and it looks like we’re going to pull through this, and I hope that anyone who needs help can reach out, and anyone who’s ready and willing to help, I’m grateful for those people that are in the frontline and I hope that all goes well.

Everybody stay together, stay home, stay safe, be well, and I love my country and I love all of you. Have a wonderful day. Bye Bye.


Call No. 1413

Wednesday, April 22, 2020 at 11:09:20 AM EDT

Hi, and we’re from New York and my boyfriend and me live together. Live together for one month and we practice social distancing for a long time. And this year he’s gonna move to Canada and I’m gonna stay here. And I think um. I think at this moment we’re really thankful for having a job, and be healthy and I hope we can get through it really fast.


Call No. 1351

Wednesday, April 22, 2020 at 10:58:31 AM EDT

It’s Saturday. Chillen. Kinda bored. I wish my friends would play games with me, but they’re all wife-ed up. Busy I guess. Seems like there shouldn’t be anything to do, and yet, they’re too busy to hang out with me. I see how it is.