Something that I’ve been reflecting on during this time, are the new stories that are coming out about cities all over the world that have massive amounts of pollution normally, and how that pollution has cleared up because all the factory workers are home and the factories are on pause.
And I just think about the little children, who may have never seen a blue sky before, and who are going to be looking at blue skies for the first time in their lives.
And perhaps they’re adolescent or adults even, who might be seeing them for the first time.
And maybe once this is over, the grayness and the pollution will come back, but those people are going to be forever changed by that knowledge.
And I just wonder how that might affect them down the line.
I’m not sure what I want or need right now. It seems like my needs are pretty met. Like, I have food and, you know, company. I feel pretty good. I feel kind of crazy, but I also don’t really, you know, I don’t feel unsafe. Uh, yeah.
Hi, I’m calling in from Santa Cruz, California. I am at my dad’s house. He set up a little quarantine room and bought me a mini fridge.
I got here three days ago and I’m in the room right now. I have a Murphy bed and my bag is half unpacked and I have a fully stocked mini fridge. So, I feel grateful for that. I came from New York, so that was really interesting and sort of heartbreaking to see the city in that state.
I think that I was in denial that things are not going back to normal for a while, until I decided to come back to California. And that’s when I really started to accept, I guess, that this is real and this is happening. And how has my life changed?
Well, I have to check what the day was today, cause I’ve completely lost track of the date. Time feels like very much a fiction right now. But also, I’m able to work on my own schedule, which is cool. And I’m working from home, which is also, it’s nice. And I have worn yoga pants every day for the last month.
But I think that although the flexibility and working from home is nice, this situation has made me get existential at certain times, feel really hopeful for humanity at other times, because it’s making me see how fragile our systems and structures that we rely on really are and how that can change any time. And those are things that, you know, you just take as given.
You just get up for work, hop on the subway, do your job, sit at your desk, talk with your office mates, eat lunch, blah, blah, blah. You’re just like stuck on the rat wheel. I guess that’s what this is, in a way kind of a blessing to step off the rat wheel. I’m lucky that I’m not sick and no one that I know around me is sick, but I digress.
I just, I’m realizing too how much the little things matter. And when you’re caught on the rat wheel, it’s kind of hard to see how much everything means to you. Like, for example, I have two office mates for my new job that I started six months ago and I didn’t even know that I can miss them cause I didn’t ever think about the fact that I care about them, even though I do. I don’t know them that well. But when I see their faces on their emails to me, I miss them and I feel a sense of love for them.
And it’s those little things, that are part of our everyday life, our everyday grind, that we stopped really seeing and appreciating, I guess. And it’s the same thing with everything else. Like fresh produce. Seeing my friends. And being able to go out and about in the world and share it with everyone else. And that sounds so simple, but when it’s taken away, you start to see how much everything means to you.
And I hope that when we come out of this, we can hold on to some of that, or at least I hope that I can hold on to some of that and remember how important everything is to me and how important all the little things are. Not overlook them as life goes on, because life is fragile and life is short and life is so beautiful and it’s so beautiful that we get to share it together. Oh, and the other thing is, I’ve been doing a lot more coloring books and singing.
I’ve been singing and I love singing. And I am so shy about singing, but now that I’m at my dad’s house, and I know that no one can hear me, I have just been belting it out and it feels so good! And I would never spend the time really with coloring books necessarily, or learning songs. I would try and distract me with other things. But now, I’m getting more into that.
And also, this whole situation is making me feel like, what the fuck do I have to lose? Why am I feeling shy about someone hearing my voice? Like, what? That’s, I don’t know, like, life is so short and so fragile, and why sweat the little things, you know, if it makes you feel good and you’re not hurting anyone then what’s the worry? And so that’s another thing I hope that I carry with me is a sense of freedom and expressing myself and having the space to kinda play around with that in a really safe space at my dad’s house, where I know that I will be accepted for whatever the fuck I do cause he wiped my ass a million times. And I’m lucky for that.
But anyways, yeah, playing around with that internal spaces and finding the things that make you feel alive and then hopefully I want to cultivate the confidence to share that with people and I don’t know why that is scary, but I guess like in everyday life, I guess it doesn’t matter. Yeah, and so that’s my experience with Covid thus far. Oh, and just feeling numb and not really knowing how to feel, because you can’t wrap your mind around it.
It just feels so incomprehensible and I don’t really know how to feel. And I think maybe I have projections about how this will change the world and I’m sure it’ll change me. I’m sure it’ll change a lot of people. But it’s hard to make sense of all that right now. And this is really cool that people can share their feelings about Covid and how it’s impacting them anonymously, because this is a safe space and I hope that maybe in general, we’ll come out of this closer than ever because we realize that we’re all the same and no matter where you come from, and of course there is like, you know, I mean, there’s so many factors into who gets the health treatment and who has access to hospitals and food deliveries and all that.
But nonetheless, the virus knows no borders and we’re all human, and we’re all subject to getting sick, we’re all going to die. So how can we come together and share this beautiful experience while we can? That’s my hope, something like that will come out of this. We’ll see some sort of unity and all of it. Yeah. But we’ll see. The uncertainty is uncertain. Okay. Well thanks, bye.
Hi. I’m calling from New York, and I just wanted to share how I was feeling this week. And I think it’s been tough for some reason. And, I was thinking about it and was thinking why it’s more difficult than other weeks of this. And I think, that it’s because it’s been a really a while, and for me, you know, this whole situation was feeling temporary.
And right now, it’s been already a while. And to me, all the temporary things after they last for a while, they become really annoying. Everything that’s temporary to me, I don’t know, adds somehow to, like, my anxiety and things like that. Like, if it’s not resolved after a while, if it’s been long enough the temporary things, feel like they become the permanent things.
So I think that’s why I’ve been feeling more anxious about the situation. Yeah. That’s my conclusion. Thank you. And at the same time, I think it’s really scary to think that this is the new normal, which is like the thing new reality. Like, it’s really hard to think about it, that this can be, you know, our future for a while. But at the same time, I’m thinking maybe it can be really freeing as well if I just accept the fact that this is how things are going to be in the future too.
So, yeah. Okay. Anyway, I need to go. Thank you so much. Thanks.
Hi! My name is Kelsey, calling from Boulder, Colorado. So, I had an experience today in the grocery store, where it was Whole Foods. Of course. And they’ve been incredible about cleaning the checkout stands in between people, which means that the line is very, very long, and that it takes a while to get through the line and you have to be extra patient. And I think that’s what I’m calling to talk about is patience and understanding.
I feel like, especially in difficult times like these, people can become impatient and want to lash out, just to relieve some of the stress that they’re feeling. And I saw that happen today. The man behind me misheard the guy, the store clerk who was guiding people, and move ahead too soon. And the store clerk had to tell him to move back. And the guy got kind of angry. And then the store clerk said, I’m sorry, just deal with this.
We know it’s annoying. It’s just we’re trying to do our best. And I think that everybody’s trying to do their best and it’s easy to slip into a very comfortable space of being annoyed with others. Like, I’ve noticed that in myself. I’ll get irritated with others because they’re not adjusting in the same way I am, or as fast as I am.
And I just like to share a wish for people that whenever you feel that anger or frustration flare up around something Covid-related, to just take a really deep breath and put yourself in the shoes of that person. When the man behind me reacted angrily towards the store clerk and the store clerk said, sorry, that this is so annoying. I turned around and loudly proclaimed that, no, it’s not annoying and it’s necessary, and thank you and sorry that people are kind of frustrated with you for doing something that protects everyone.
And it’s hard to separate the comfort of the little irritations with people daily because it makes it seem normal. And to actually acknowledge, no, he needs to wipe down that kiosk before the next person goes there. And yes, it takes more time, but everybody will be healthier for it.
So I guess my message is just about patience and empathy. And whenever you’re feeling frustrated with something that’s taking longer than it usually would, just think about why and imagine that you are someone vulnerable who was being protected, by the extra action and that extra few seconds, which gives us time to really think instead of just bust through our days without any thought at all.
That’s it. Thank you so much for setting up this recording and I hope that this brings something or new thoughts to someone.
Hi, I wanted to describe my surroundings. I’m currently in the backyard of someone who I’ve gone on a second date with.
Our first date was a walk, a hike in the woods. And this is our second date where we walked around to the neighborhood and now we’re currently in their backyard surrounded by succulents, garden beds, and a little bit patch of grass.
We’ve got two bottles of, two glasses of wine, a bottle, and then a bottle of Topo Chico.
It’s cloudy out and we’re hoping the sun comes out.
Hi, I’m calling from Brooklyn, New York. I’m lucky enough in this time of social distancing to be able to work from home. So I’m able to work remotely and lucky enough to have my fiance and my pup to keep me company throughout the day.
So, my life has changed a lot, in the sense of just, you know, not taking the subway to work, not being able to see friends, coworkers, to go out and celebrate. But I also do feel like it’s changed in ways that obviously are disappointing, but are, you know, a far cry from ways that it’s changing for people experiencing just significant loss or who are in much tougher situations than I’m in. So, I also feel very lucky in this time.
I think one thing that stands out to me significantly is just, you know, walking, walking around outside in the neighborhood. I feel like it’s normally such a joyful experience, especially in spring time now that’s happening in Brooklyn. But, I feel like there’s just so much fear on people’s faces. Especially as you know, we’re wearing masks to keep each other safe.
It’s just, walking just isn’t the same experience it was pre Covid-19. and it feels like something that needs to be done kind of quickly and really intentionally, rather than just being able to wander and look at beautiful Brooklyn brownstones, or, you know, look at Brooklyn Bridge Park, or just see people out and enjoying the city life, which is one of the, you know, things that draws me to Brooklyn.
So, one exciting thing, hopefully that I’m excited for after quarantine is up, is getting married whenever that happens. Hopefully it can happen still in a large wedding way, but maybe it just happens as a smaller ceremony, just with our parents. But that’s something I’m looking forward to. And then also just kind of seeing friends, again, seeing people, and just being out and feeling the energy of the city, which is now so empty.
I’m very thankful for Zoom calls and game nights, virtually with friends, but really just looking forward to being in the same room with people again. On a different note, I’m also hopeful that this means that the nation really cares for the workers that we’re regarding as essential during this time and provides grocery store workers and delivery workers with health insurance, with public benefits, with a social safety net that we normally just afford to higher paid workers and what we call higher skilled workers. So I’m hopeful that, you know, out of this great tragedy, we will really see a coming together.
I think we’ve really seen that a lot in New York. I think there really is a strong feeling of unity and I hope on a national level we can feel that and we can translate that into something that really has tangible results out of this crisis for a lot of the workers that we don’t necessarily support in the way that we should. And we really see healthcare as an essential human right. And the living wage as an essential human right.
So, thank you for this project and I look forward to hearing more stories.
Hey, how’s it going? I’m in, I know we’re not supposed to mention names, but I’m in Dallas right now, and just enjoying an odd day, feels like a summer day, almost. A little bit of rain. The weather is nice.
I was reading, again, I know we’re not supposed to say any names, but I was reading a Calvin and Hobbes comic earlier with my son. He’s four. And, I don’t know, it’s funny. There was one comic in particular that could have happened in the middle of Covid and you’d never know.
You know, it’s just like, it feels like something’s just taken away from us, but then, when you look at something, that shows what we still have in front of us that we can still do, it’s kind of refreshing.
In the comic, Calvin and Hobbes wake up. They eat breakfast and they read comics. Then they go outside and they play with their little pellet guns. They take pictures of each other, making funny faces. Then they dig in the backyard for dinosaurs, and then they [unintelligible] a little pool, they pick up rocks and look for bugs. They play Calvin ball and they look at clouds and they tussle in the backyard and they throw a water balloon over the fence at Suzy. They climb a tree, they make a drink stand. They run away from a snake. They look at the moon. And they collect fireflies. And they go to bed and they’re just bummed that the day was so short.
I don’t know, this is nice. It’s like going through these things and it’s, I can still do all that with my son, you know. Most of this stuff I could do in my backyard. When you think about, I dunno, there’s such fear around our worlds being shrunk down to our home and our backyard because the quarantine, but it’s refreshing to kind of look at the point of view of a kid and how huge of a world that can be when you’re a kid. That you know, the backyard is an entire universe.
That’s refreshing. They’re super stoked about going outside and playing but it started to rain. So now I’m watching Batman. Sorry for mentioning that name. Bye.